My Journey from Dissociation to Deep Healing
And why I now help women reclaim their nervous systems, relationships, and truth.
I’m a Subconscious & Somatic Healing Coach for women who’ve read every book, tried every tool, and still feel like they’re disappearing inside their own life. But I haven't always been this grounded, in fact, more most of my life I was angry, resentful, and deeply disconnected from myself...
I was the one holding it all together - the childcare, the house cleaning, the scheduling, the Dr. appointments, the sick-days, the emotions, EVERYTHING👏🏼 and I was angry and so disconnected to myself!
I resented everything but especially how easy it was for my partner to stay late at work or go to happy hour, while I had to jump through several hoops just to go to dinner with a friend.
We fought a lot and I blamed him for everything. Meanwhile, I was disappearing by pouring myself into everyone else, but never back into me. I didn't know how, to be honest with you. If you'd have asked me what I liked to do 5 years ago I'd look at you with quarter sized eyes and no clue. Dissociated is an understatement. I was so far removed from feeling my body and my emotions and therefore unable to live an authentic life because I didn't even know whose life I was living. (Thinking: what the hell am I doing? How did I get here? Is this all life is? on repeat 🔁) And because of this, I caused a lot of hurt and distrust in myself and my relationship.
Around 2020, I finally realized the extent of autopilot I was living and I was disgusted with myself and the decisions I was making. So, I decided to do something about it and officially started getting serious about my healing journey. Of course I started where everyone does: listening to the Super Soul Sunday 🤣 (for real tho) and reading ALL👏🏼 the self-help books... seriously...my library is amazing and I'm happy to lend out some of my books. But let me save you some time: understanding your pain isn’t the same as releasing it. Reading the books is comforting, but it doesn’t rewire your nervous system, it doesn’t help you set boundaries, feel your emotions, or live a truth that’s fully your own. Reading your way through healing is called intellectualization and it's a classic defense mechanism using logic and reasoning to avoid feeling uncomfortable emotions.
Fast forward signing up for To Be Magnetic June 2020, diving head first into Inner Child and Shadow work. This is when I began to realize my limiting beliefs, patterning, and HOW to heal on a subconscious level.
Things began to finally shift. Something people don't often talk about is: the more I changed, the more I felt misunderstood. As I was shedding layers and accepting the "unloveable parts of me" (shadow) I was still being treated as the the version of me I had trained others to expect. Not to get all woo-woo on you, but there is a lag time before your body catches up to your changed internal workings, aka your spirit.
Eventually, I noticed that the more I focused on me, the more others around me began to respond differently, an even started doing their own work! Trigger warning: this is where people and things in your life start to fall off because they are no longer in alignment with you. **There is grief in this, and that will be held and acknowledged when working together**, but it's not always something people talk about.
All this to say, it wasn’t until I reconnected to my body, my truth, and my voice that everything began to shift. Even after the Academy of Breath and Advanced Practitioner Training, I had to face a hard truth: I was still the Queen of Dissociation. Because remember, true change doesn’t happen when you learn about your patterns, it happens when you embody something new. Yikes. Thats a hard but real truth. True change isn't just in the head - and that's why I do what I do and it's ever evolving (more of that to come...) because real, true and lasting change, happens when we release it from our bodies as well. Subconsious work is FABULOUS and undeniably effective, but it's the somatic work (breath, movement, sound) that helps us complete the healing cycle and truly and holistically heal.
This is the work I do now: guiding women like you through their own real-life Reset - from overthinking and overwhelm to regulation, rootedness, and radical self-trust.
If you’re ready to stop disappearing and finally live from your truth… this is the work that changes everything.